In this room of faces I know, no one knows me I move like a shadow too & fro. I ask if you see me to which you don’t reply. I see all the black clothes & I see you in white mourning my loss.
You have a picture up with no casket. No body & no charges. You all believe I ran away to never be seen or heard from again.
I see you looking at my cousin complimenting her setting a date at my funeral. She says yes!, it’s incredulous that you both can think of food & sex at a time like this.
My niece keeps looking at me & waves she’s just a baby. The voice said kids & animals will acknowledge me & a minute number of adults. The voice said to punish you & you alone lest I risk eternal torment upon completion of my mission.
I’ve been watching you for what feels like weeks as you date my cousin, best friend, sister, you even slept with my mother. I see you looking in them trying to find me. You’re recreating our dates minus the violence. It’s almost boring until you go to work.
I thought you were a business exec not a capo for a family. You make more sense now as I reflect on you. Your violent tendencies coupled with a need to make it. When we were together you were just a button man but after my death you got the push upward. I saw you celebrate with my cousin regifting her my pearls & fucking her your car.
I see you to marry & feel jealous unable to hurt you both. You have a daughter and name her after me. I’m watching you live joyously in complete silence. You’re becoming a family man with her, professionally your star continues to rise.
You were short listed to become boss. You’re a “earner” who has a no nonsense approach to business & you’re a family man. The powers that be in your world deem you to be worthy of a crown to rule a piece of the city.
Your daughter is using & I think I’ve found a in to finally avenge my loss. Her habit gets her arrested. She’s looking at a decade inside where you can’t help her. My cousin begs you to save your baby I loom overheard whispering what she refuses to acknowledge. You’re a criminal, a killer, & her life was easier before you asked her out. You get angry showing her the man I remember. The blows to her body begin your descent.
My cousins visits your daughter telling her to be strong & she loves her. She left you after your daughter is found dead. I whispered in her ears that she’d never do 10 years & that you were ashamed of her. She bought a hot shot & did the rest.
My cousin is divorcing you after burying her baby. You’ve been drinking more, hitting her more & loving her less.
You have a mistress that unbeknownst to you is a cop. A cop who can hear & see me. In bed you dominate her but in life she’s chipping away at your crown.
Your capo’s are watching you flail & get permission to remove you as head. There’s a new candidate for the spotlight. You don’t notice the change until it’s a birthday at a bar you’ve never been to. I’m there watching you. The pistol is to the back of your head as you talk, you see me standing as it all goes black. Your light dims.
The voice returns, reminding me of my deal. Showing me the pain I caused sacrificing your daughter. I accept bliss this time.
The voice judges you. I hear you scream my name while you descend.