my hands hurt
the second joints mostly on my left hand
I’m irritable in a whole new way
more restless than usual.
What’s this new driving force in my system.
why now am I feeling this utter contempt for my work.
I hate this shit. My job is so intertwined with my family
my life is a drain of energy from multiple faucets
my energy is spent like coins at a vending machine.
this life I’m leading
takes more from me than it gives back. That’s life in general this I am aware of, but damn if it does seem as if its only getting worse.
few things bring joy to me right now the list is getting shorter.
If I said my life is pointless that’d be to big of a point to raise.
I’m glad to be alive in some capacity
Even if I dread 80% of my day.
I’m thankful for a gig to pay my bills
friends who get me
alcohol to drink
and money to pay
even if it feels lifeless & pointless to be here.