Over the years I’ve had to come to terms that being real can lead to me being alone.
But here is the thing about being authentic.
It means that I gotta admit to wanting you around more than a few nights a week.
Admitting that I like you & how you make me feel.
Being authentic having to acknowledge the confusion about why you like me. I know I’m dope as duck if only short term but I’m not always understanding long term.
It’s crazy to an extent that there are 2 “you’s “.
2 unique reasons to get up in the morning and looking forward to a new day.
Wishing for more time with each of you trying to share my energy & resources with both. Not trying to just have a physical thing, a emotional game to.
Investing into two is easier than I thought but maintaining is the rub. Flowing schools of thought of equality drives home the hybrid I’m in.
I’m married to myself but loyal to you two. Balancing checks & fun.
Being authentically me leads me to understand the reality of being able to say the truth & live a lie.
I’m authentic if only with you since I’m showing you me up close and in perspective.
Authentic by design
Sincere in practice
Yours by desire